How can I profess my love to you
After all that we have been through
fighting, arguments, and so on
I feel like Im dreaming

In a world where you are supposed to live your dream
everyone does not achieve
I am going through this over and over in my head

I mean I know I did wrong
I know I screwed up
I apologize deeply for that
Yet, I cant still see how I can express my love for you

I toss and turn because I miss you
I dream about you every night
Cant you see I still care?

I know you might not want to hear this
but, I am totally aware
I beat myself about how it ended
Why cant it be like it used to?

We can go back to being friends
And maybe progress into more
thats if you are willing

I love, love, love you
I am still smitten
I love your smile and your wittiness
to say it is a fact

I hope you get this message that I am trying to send to you
I cleaned up my act and wont break the rules..

- This poem is inspired by things having multiple meanings. You can interpret it however you may like. There is no wrong or right answer to the subject or thing that I am talking about. Please give me your feedback on what you think it means! Leave a comment PLEASE!

By Lady L

Yea, I actually got the inspiration of this title from the piano man---- "Billy Joel"


I am in a dream-like state of mind
Where everything happens on my time
There is no corruption and bogus lines
I am in a dream like state of mind

I see the movie stars but, not the fancy cars
I see broke families struggling
Police doing multiple beatings
I am in a dream like state of mind

I see the flashing lights and people fight
I see prices sky rocket as the economy pits
The Outrageous city of mine

Young people getting killed
Communities going in shrill
I am in a dream-like state of mind


----- More to come...
-----Tell me if you like it

Love is a funny thing
You have to learn which people to love and which ones to not
It is hard to find out which one to do
Future, Dreams, Ambition
Some things are out of your reach or at least
seem to be
Sometimes you dont know if you are one their mind or not
You are not a mind reader
Sometimes I dont know what to think
Stop landing on your face and get up on your feet
You will make it and learn things in the process
Ughh, sometimes people just try to hard..

*this not about anyone just random thoughts*

Plain and simple. Dressing up for myself , going to a spa, and shopping...

I went a model call yesterday-8/18/09 and it was a experience I will never forget. Standing in line with hundreds of people and waiting for you turn is a patience thing. I actually strained my calves in the 3 1/2" heeled oxford patent leather booties I was wearing. I could not go to sleep to save my life... I will put up a pic of me in the outfit soon. I still cannot believe over 400 people showed up for auditions.

I have been doing well in school and keeping up my sanity (you know that can get with college!). Some days, you just want to blow a volcano thats been building up lava for years. lol. Anyway, i have this bizbash to attend on thursday and hopefully this will help me out with a job or even internship. I would take either one at this point.  

blog following this soon!

Yes, you heard it right.. I'm a model, I'm a plus size model... Well, since I last blogged things have been going great. Me and the bf are doing great. My dad has made major improvements in his health.  I'm doing better in school and now am more focused then ever. I just got a casting call for the Twilight trilogy. I really hope I get to the part. Even if I am just an extra doing a flying leap across the screen for like 2 seconds. It would the chance of a lifetime.

Just wanted to give an update

My birthday bash was a huge success. I was so happy that I had a good turn out. It was just a small get-together. I really want to thank everyone that came out and partied it up with me. I know everyone was asking me the question "how does it feel to be 19?" It does not feel any different. I actually felt the difference when I entered college. I mean it really makes you grow up..

But, anywho thanks for the amazing birthday and only two more finals to go until i'm off for the next week.

I'm in the money. I am getting signed to an modeling agency tomorrow. I am so freaking stoked!!!
I mean I been wanting to get in the industry for the longest. I am happy that the curvy and voluptous sisters paved the way for this to happen.

I will give another update soon and put my photoshoot  pics up here..

    I would say since I was eight or nine has have been wanting to get into the modeling industry. I know there alot of scams out there and they just love to exploit people. I figured that if I let that hold me back then my dream would not have a chance to become a reality. As this may sound corny for many, it is not for me. I know people see the skinny and tall fashion runway models and get discouraged. Everyone does not look like the models that you see in Teen Vogue or the latest issue of Fitness magazine.

   They have finally realized that more women are not a size 0 or 4. They have shattered the glass of the so called model stereotype. People are unique and come in all different shapes. I did not think I could become a model and when they said I was "Plus-Size" I was a little offened. They assured me that plus-size does not mean FAT but, CURVY.. Ok, I can accept that. I have learned to love my body for what it is and not let the media brain-washing.


   This is a lesson to be learned for all. Love yourself no matter what others may think of you. Loving yourself is the first step to letting someone else love you.

By the way, I just got a call for model casting... I am too stoked!!!

what is this world coming to?
I mean really people robbing in broad daylight
people gettting killed
people losing their jobs over nothing
people doing fraud
people gettting more diseases than ever
people cant get a job because of unruly requirements
people that are asses for no reason
people that come back from war and have no life
people that love and love and then its lost

I used to believe in writing poems and love notes
I wonder what happened to them?
My mind seems boggled from writers block
Twisting and turning inside
My imagination went dead, no creations coming out of my head
I always wondered what it would be like challenged
I wrote this poem so that it could be said
Sparks do not fly, no lightbulb hear
Yet, this poem is so dear
So, if anyone reads this just know
That I used to believe in writing poems and love notes
Wait, here is my artistic flow...

*Comment Please*

CityDiva

 I finished my art project. I didnt even know that I could be so creaive. I will put up some pictures soon..
L8tr.

I am sitting and wondering about random things

Reading old  messages and trinkets

Reminisceing about the good  times I had in the past

And about the ones I will have  in the future.

I have been sitting and wondering

Will you ever come back to me? Ever?

Will  I ever see you face again?

Will I ever get to hold you in my arms agian?

I  look through  piles of cards I  have gotten from friends and family

Looking at how things have changed over the years

I went from little girl to young woman

I have learned from my mistakes but, making them is only human

I want to say important things to some people maybe for validation

I learned that you can not anywhere  but, up when you work hard

I am sitting  and wondering how things changed so fast

Its just nice to sometimes to think about the past...

But, to look toward the future..


 

I am doing big things in my little world on this planet earth. I mean big!
First, I am starting my own dog walking business and trying to get it off the ground... (now taking appointments!)
Second, I did well for my 3rd Quarter of classes at the newly renamed RMU (Robert Morris University!)
Third, I testing the waters with Junior Achievement for my CMT200 class @ school. This will be fun
Fourth, Im going to be a campus Girl Scout and get back intfo the swing of it.
Fifth, when you cant find a job make up your own success.. (my new quote to live by!)
Sixth, Goal is to get on the Dean's List and stay for as many quarters as I can.
Seventh, Is so glad I have a loving boyfriend... I would do anything for him..
Finally, Im saying Good Night to Facebook, Livejournal,Twitter, and Myspace for this morning..
Gosh! It is 2:13 am CST here in Chicago... Nite Nite Lovelies!!!

Twitter: http://www.twitter.com/honeydream

P.S. I got another scholarship from the goverment.. Life is Gr8t...

That is right people, I am opening up my own business. Its called freestyle dog walking. I will take care of all of your doggy needs. I will even pick up your pooch for you and drop it back off. How is that for convience. I offer group rates and  single rates. All of my prices are fully negotiable*. If you so feel that the price is unreasonable please tell me. 


I will be getting in full swing in  about a month so, I am taking appointments as of today..  

Here is  the link to my site ---------> http://freestyledogwalking.synthasite.com/

On my site it explains what the company is about and prices and how to contact me...


If you are unable to see it you can contact me at freestyledogwalking@live.com or on my cell (312)-493-4417



 

First on the list, Creed... I loved their one and only hit.. forgot the name though..
The only christian rock band I liked.. period..

Maroon5- She will be loved... I love this song because it was talking about love and how women are treated badly.
Toni Braxton-Unbreak my heart... I love this song although its sad and about breakup..
Spanish Guitar- Probably my all time favorite song.. The spanish guy is hot in the video!
Feel Good Inc. by Gorillaz- I like this song because its original... plus the cartoon video was hot..
Honkytonkbadonk by Big n'Rich- Yes, A black girl that loves country.. Its possible.. lol.. This song was memphis meets dallas..
LoveLockdown-Kanye West.. Well, it was a good beat... It could have been a little better
One Mic...Nas... "All I need is One Mic, One voice, One sound" his unethical style is brilliant..Plus, Im a poet..All I have is one mic..lol
When I get you alone-Robin Thicke.. Before he cut his hair.. I mean, its robin thicke.. how could you not love it
put on for my city.. This went out to everyone wo reps their city..

edit coming soon!

I just started a new quarter. This is quarter 3. I am a sophomore now.. Yes!!! I am moving faster than most of my friends..
I am going to be done in 2 years or less.. I love this school. I dont know why everyone was against it in the first place.
everywhere is not for everybody. My goal this year is to get on the deans and presidents list. Yes, my goal.. It would look good in the future and I know i will be doing well

I was totally singing the whole shrek soundtrack...

every little girl always has a dream
wether it is to be a ballerina or a beauty queen
you put them in little dresses and dainty little shoes
you show them off and say how cute

every little girl has a dream
it may not be so appearent
while she plays with her dolls or matchbox cars
yes, little girls do that now

from tea parties to imaginary friends
you watch her grow and thrive
until there is a bump in the road

every little girl has a dream
it may not be so appearent
while she plays with her dolls or matchbox cars
yes, little girls do that now